1 00:00:00,800 --> 00:00:02,300 (Stephen) Hi, I'm Stephen Puddicombe. 2 00:00:02,500 --> 00:00:06,630 This is another episode in CFMWS' podcast series 3 00:00:06,630 --> 00:00:08,096 about grief and bereavement. 4 00:00:08,290 --> 00:00:09,306 In this episode, 5 00:00:09,306 --> 00:00:11,176 we take a look at a special resource 6 00:00:11,176 --> 00:00:13,301 for children of military members. 7 00:00:13,660 --> 00:00:16,200 April Young is the Maple Leaf Camp Director. 8 00:00:16,400 --> 00:00:19,000 It's a camp for children of veterans and serving members. 9 00:00:19,400 --> 00:00:21,297 The camp has many faces, 10 00:00:21,297 --> 00:00:24,100 helping children with everything from limb differences, 11 00:00:24,100 --> 00:00:26,600 to facial differences, to skin disorders, 12 00:00:27,000 --> 00:00:30,980 to children whose mother or father have operational stress disorders, 13 00:00:31,390 --> 00:00:33,310 to a camp for grieving children. 14 00:00:34,037 --> 00:00:35,700 (April) We're the camp for children 15 00:00:36,012 --> 00:00:40,017 who really are in the world not knowing a lot of other kids 16 00:00:40,017 --> 00:00:44,392 who face their similar but unique life challenge. 17 00:00:44,392 --> 00:00:45,667 The key is unique. 18 00:00:46,348 --> 00:00:49,700 It's pretty rare, some of these things that the kids go through. 19 00:00:49,900 --> 00:00:51,800 By them coming together 20 00:00:51,800 --> 00:00:54,909 with kids who faced a similar challenge, 21 00:00:54,909 --> 00:00:57,529 already they have something in common 22 00:00:57,529 --> 00:01:00,031 where they don't even have to focus on that challenge. 23 00:01:01,057 --> 00:01:04,400 Just by being together, they realize they're not alone. 24 00:01:04,600 --> 00:01:07,860 They learn from each other. They get tools for their toolbox. 25 00:01:08,149 --> 00:01:09,675 And also it's really amazing 26 00:01:09,675 --> 00:01:12,500 because they form these really tight bonds 27 00:01:12,700 --> 00:01:15,416 and these create friendships that follow the kids home, 28 00:01:15,416 --> 00:01:16,728 which is our number one goal 29 00:01:16,728 --> 00:01:18,913 of each of these weeks that we do at camp. 30 00:01:19,970 --> 00:01:22,373 (Stephen) One of the ones in this topic we are dealing with 31 00:01:22,373 --> 00:01:24,977 is grief and bereavement in the military. 32 00:01:25,600 --> 00:01:28,077 A lot of times kids get overlooked. 33 00:01:29,155 --> 00:01:30,741 They're all, "They'll get over it. 34 00:01:31,100 --> 00:01:33,800 They're only ten. They won't really remember. 35 00:01:33,800 --> 00:01:34,998 They'll forget about it." 36 00:01:35,150 --> 00:01:36,535 But that's not really true. 37 00:01:36,700 --> 00:01:38,553 How are you helping to address that? 38 00:01:39,860 --> 00:01:43,902 (April) Right. Well, first of all, I learned something long ago 39 00:01:43,902 --> 00:01:47,657 when I became part of the helping grief community, 40 00:01:48,050 --> 00:01:50,908 and that's that children need to grieve. 41 00:01:51,300 --> 00:01:53,670 All grieving is a good thing for kids. 42 00:01:53,670 --> 00:01:55,841 They need an outlet because they feel it. 43 00:01:56,162 --> 00:01:58,660 And these kids, a lot of times... 44 00:01:59,227 --> 00:02:01,406 Everybody is afraid to upset the children, 45 00:02:01,620 --> 00:02:03,723 so they may not talk about it in their home, 46 00:02:03,723 --> 00:02:05,560 but the children are already feeling it. 47 00:02:05,560 --> 00:02:07,657 Then they hold in their feelings. 48 00:02:07,930 --> 00:02:11,165 These kids become almost the caregivers 49 00:02:11,165 --> 00:02:13,120 of the rest of their family 50 00:02:13,300 --> 00:02:15,149 and holding it together for them. 51 00:02:17,079 --> 00:02:22,465 The thing is, with our camp, it's a place where kids 52 00:02:22,800 --> 00:02:27,200 can just be able to be themselves and be free and open-- 53 00:02:27,200 --> 00:02:28,600 there's no elephant in the room-- 54 00:02:28,600 --> 00:02:30,660 where they're there, if they want to talk about it, 55 00:02:30,660 --> 00:02:31,932 that we're all there for them. 56 00:02:31,932 --> 00:02:35,400 It's a gift that their family member 57 00:02:35,600 --> 00:02:37,202 or their guardian can give them. 58 00:02:37,202 --> 00:02:40,100 It is a safe place to grieve. 59 00:02:40,500 --> 00:02:42,783 And as you mentioned, 60 00:02:44,391 --> 00:02:45,942 children's grief is a journey. 61 00:02:47,347 --> 00:02:51,900 How they feel just after their parent or sibling has died, 62 00:02:52,200 --> 00:02:56,682 it changes the way that they grieve, over time and as they grow. 63 00:02:57,091 --> 00:02:58,091 And at our camp, 64 00:02:58,480 --> 00:03:01,568 we actually encourage the kids to come back year after year 65 00:03:01,568 --> 00:03:02,671 on their grief journey. 66 00:03:03,100 --> 00:03:06,600 That's why we called the camp Camp Skein, 67 00:03:07,000 --> 00:03:08,925 because it's the flight of the birds 68 00:03:08,925 --> 00:03:11,510 as they support each other in their flight, 69 00:03:11,510 --> 00:03:13,300 and they each take turns 70 00:03:13,800 --> 00:03:15,960 being the support and being the supporter. 71 00:03:16,200 --> 00:03:18,541 We have now camp counsellors 72 00:03:18,850 --> 00:03:21,500 who were once campers who were grieving. 73 00:03:21,700 --> 00:03:25,031 They're there to show the kids, "You know what? There is hope." 74 00:03:25,500 --> 00:03:29,000 That is why the symbol of childhood bereavement is the butterfly. 75 00:03:29,000 --> 00:03:30,106 It's the symbol of hope. 76 00:03:30,979 --> 00:03:33,295 (Stephen) April, this sounds all well-intentioned, 77 00:03:33,295 --> 00:03:35,100 but it sounds sad. 78 00:03:36,300 --> 00:03:38,348 Little kids going to camp should be canoeing 79 00:03:38,348 --> 00:03:41,200 and archery and swimming and... 80 00:03:42,281 --> 00:03:43,459 A bereavement camp. 81 00:03:43,459 --> 00:03:44,642 It just doesn't sound... 82 00:03:45,314 --> 00:03:46,315 (sighs) 83 00:03:46,514 --> 00:03:48,358 It's important but still, 84 00:03:48,500 --> 00:03:51,124 how do you get around that sad part? 85 00:03:52,400 --> 00:03:54,670 (April) Okay. Well, first of all, I will say to you, 86 00:03:54,900 --> 00:03:57,571 on any given day, when you arrive at this camp, 87 00:03:57,571 --> 00:03:59,372 if you were to pop by for a visit, 88 00:03:59,668 --> 00:04:01,293 it is anything but sad camp. 89 00:04:01,560 --> 00:04:02,560 In fact, 90 00:04:02,560 --> 00:04:08,200 the energy is so over-the-top happy and joyous and child fun 91 00:04:08,400 --> 00:04:12,140 that it is almost abnormally happy that way. 92 00:04:12,140 --> 00:04:15,400 Now, I will say this, is that when children-- 93 00:04:15,700 --> 00:04:16,897 it's a phenomenon, 94 00:04:16,897 --> 00:04:19,391 and I'm not sure who to quote for this. 95 00:04:19,391 --> 00:04:20,484 I've heard it many times-- 96 00:04:20,800 --> 00:04:21,800 that children, 97 00:04:21,800 --> 00:04:23,743 the way they grieve is different than adults. 98 00:04:24,519 --> 00:04:25,600 With children... 99 00:04:25,955 --> 00:04:28,412 They call it, the analogy is puddle jumping, 100 00:04:28,700 --> 00:04:31,901 where they'll be fine, fine, happy as a clam, 101 00:04:31,901 --> 00:04:33,340 and then they'll jump in the puddle, 102 00:04:33,340 --> 00:04:36,482 and they'll get all wet, and they'll be right there in their grief. 103 00:04:36,482 --> 00:04:39,116 And then they'll jump right back out of the puddle again, 104 00:04:39,116 --> 00:04:40,396 and they'll want to play games, 105 00:04:40,396 --> 00:04:42,183 want to run with their friends and whatever. 106 00:04:42,500 --> 00:04:45,600 The idea is, at our camp, yes, 107 00:04:46,000 --> 00:04:49,023 yes, we acknowledge the fact of why they're there, right? 108 00:04:49,023 --> 00:04:51,707 Like I say, the elephant right out of the room. No elephants. 109 00:04:51,707 --> 00:04:53,000 They come to camp, 110 00:04:53,300 --> 00:04:55,641 and right off the bat, the first thing they do is, 111 00:04:55,641 --> 00:04:58,947 they had sent in photos of their person who died, 112 00:04:59,300 --> 00:05:00,800 and they're laminated. 113 00:05:01,130 --> 00:05:02,477 Around the flagpole, 114 00:05:02,477 --> 00:05:05,200 which is the most important thing we do at our camp, 115 00:05:05,500 --> 00:05:08,080 we stand in a circle as one big family 116 00:05:08,080 --> 00:05:10,095 around the camp in the opening night, 117 00:05:10,460 --> 00:05:14,786 and the children bring up their photo 118 00:05:14,786 --> 00:05:17,670 and hang it on a tree that's attached to the flagpole 119 00:05:18,058 --> 00:05:21,831 and introduce who they are there with, who are they there for. 120 00:05:22,400 --> 00:05:25,350 And then, every morning when we raise the flag 121 00:05:25,350 --> 00:05:27,400 and every night when we lower it down, 122 00:05:27,900 --> 00:05:30,788 their person is right there in the circle with us. 123 00:05:31,360 --> 00:05:32,500 They're there. 124 00:05:32,500 --> 00:05:34,735 And then, throughout the week, 125 00:05:35,300 --> 00:05:39,641 I would say it's about 80% fun and friendship is what we do. 126 00:05:39,641 --> 00:05:40,700 And when I say fun, 127 00:05:40,900 --> 00:05:44,399 I'm talking sparkles, body paint, music, 128 00:05:44,399 --> 00:05:47,400 over-the-top fun, like 24/7, right? 129 00:05:47,600 --> 00:05:51,600 And then, the other 20% is specific programming 130 00:05:51,800 --> 00:05:53,300 that is led by... 131 00:05:55,800 --> 00:05:59,753 childhood bereavement specialists who come to the island. 132 00:05:59,753 --> 00:06:02,866 We are partnered with Seasons Centre for Grieving Children, 133 00:06:02,866 --> 00:06:04,600 who bring their grief specialists. 134 00:06:05,568 --> 00:06:07,292 They're there to support the kids. 135 00:06:07,292 --> 00:06:10,100 We will do activities, usually one a day, 136 00:06:10,100 --> 00:06:12,601 but that's out of the 12-hour day kind of thing. 137 00:06:12,601 --> 00:06:15,600 One hour a day where we do an activity 138 00:06:15,900 --> 00:06:21,169 that is child friendly but opens communication, 139 00:06:21,169 --> 00:06:24,553 helps them explore their feelings, realizing they're not alone. 140 00:06:24,800 --> 00:06:27,110 Such as we bring horses onto the island 141 00:06:27,110 --> 00:06:28,824 and call them healing horses. 142 00:06:29,498 --> 00:06:32,887 They learn about trust, giving your trust to this big animal, 143 00:06:32,887 --> 00:06:36,995 and to lean on each other as you're working with them. 144 00:06:37,300 --> 00:06:38,492 We do drumming, 145 00:06:38,492 --> 00:06:41,300 where they write messages to their loved ones, 146 00:06:41,300 --> 00:06:44,900 and they put them in these recycled ice cream buckets. 147 00:06:45,200 --> 00:06:47,000 That is duct-taped over, 148 00:06:47,300 --> 00:06:50,480 and they get to send these messages out to the universe 149 00:06:50,480 --> 00:06:53,666 in a powerful drum circle with the kids, 150 00:06:53,887 --> 00:06:55,700 where they realize, "Oh, my goodness. 151 00:06:55,900 --> 00:06:58,090 There's so much power in numbers" 152 00:06:58,090 --> 00:07:00,863 and that we're all here to be a family and support each other. 153 00:07:01,635 --> 00:07:04,904 Those are the kind of activities that we pepper in 154 00:07:05,100 --> 00:07:07,473 to our canoeing and fishing with sticks 155 00:07:07,473 --> 00:07:09,619 and carnivals and dance parties 156 00:07:09,900 --> 00:07:11,795 and musical theatre. 157 00:07:11,795 --> 00:07:14,277 And all of that stuff, for 80%, 158 00:07:14,500 --> 00:07:17,019 the idea is it all ties together 159 00:07:17,019 --> 00:07:19,241 to give them the supportive experience 160 00:07:19,583 --> 00:07:24,152 with the grief support that they need. 161 00:07:25,676 --> 00:07:27,820 Even though there's no kid 162 00:07:27,820 --> 00:07:29,900 who's going to say, "Sign me up for grief camp." 163 00:07:29,900 --> 00:07:31,778 It's not something that a child will say. 164 00:07:32,310 --> 00:07:36,600 When the family member or the therapist 165 00:07:36,600 --> 00:07:40,400 or whoever refers the child and gets the child to come, 166 00:07:40,600 --> 00:07:42,803 they're the ones begging to come back 167 00:07:43,000 --> 00:07:45,000 because it is not sad camp. 168 00:07:45,000 --> 00:07:47,860 It is the most fun, supportive week 169 00:07:47,860 --> 00:07:49,900 potentially that they'll ever experience, 170 00:07:49,900 --> 00:07:51,625 and then they'll come back year after year 171 00:07:51,831 --> 00:07:53,259 and become a counsellor one day. 172 00:07:54,018 --> 00:07:55,869 (Stephen) One thing people don't understand, 173 00:07:56,300 --> 00:07:58,159 that grief doesn't necessarily mean 174 00:07:58,794 --> 00:08:02,229 just a soldier dying overseas in a combat zone. 175 00:08:03,100 --> 00:08:04,359 It can mean almost anything. 176 00:08:04,730 --> 00:08:07,100 (April) It's important, you know what, there is a connection 177 00:08:07,445 --> 00:08:09,800 between the military and Camp Skein. 178 00:08:09,800 --> 00:08:13,400 Camp Skein is for any child in Canada 179 00:08:13,700 --> 00:08:16,200 who has experienced the death of a parent or sibling. 180 00:08:16,600 --> 00:08:20,554 But we are particularly very blessed to be on this show right now 181 00:08:20,554 --> 00:08:22,780 to reach out to the military community 182 00:08:23,000 --> 00:08:25,300 because our roots are in military. 183 00:08:25,300 --> 00:08:30,223 Our founders in 1955 was the Canadian Council of War Veterans. 184 00:08:30,628 --> 00:08:34,800 We are firmly planted in our roots. 185 00:08:35,100 --> 00:08:38,252 Now, that being said, we want to reach out to everybody 186 00:08:38,252 --> 00:08:44,100 because it's not just children whose parent died on duty, 187 00:08:44,300 --> 00:08:45,900 for example, within the military, 188 00:08:46,200 --> 00:08:48,100 but they could have died for any reason. 189 00:08:48,100 --> 00:08:51,500 This is a very supportive, loving military community as well. 190 00:08:52,720 --> 00:08:56,700 If there is a parent or a sibling who has died-- 191 00:08:57,400 --> 00:08:58,709 it could be for any reason, 192 00:08:58,709 --> 00:09:02,796 whether it's through illness, accident, death by suicide-- 193 00:09:03,000 --> 00:09:04,521 for whatever the reason is 194 00:09:04,800 --> 00:09:07,541 they will find a supportive, welcoming, loving community 195 00:09:07,541 --> 00:09:08,551 when they come. 196 00:09:08,551 --> 00:09:11,743 We really just want to reach out to the military family. 197 00:09:12,608 --> 00:09:14,596 (Stephen) [Then the] logistics. What are they? 198 00:09:14,900 --> 00:09:17,181 How does someone apply to get into camp? 199 00:09:17,181 --> 00:09:19,719 Is there a cost? Are there time frames? 200 00:09:19,719 --> 00:09:20,719 (April) First of all, 201 00:09:20,719 --> 00:09:23,052 I guess it would depend what part of the country you're in, 202 00:09:23,052 --> 00:09:25,220 because we are having, as I mentioned, 203 00:09:25,220 --> 00:09:27,632 a Camp Skein in New Brunswick as well, 204 00:09:28,193 --> 00:09:29,900 called Green Hill Lake Camp, 205 00:09:31,537 --> 00:09:32,918 and then one in Ontario. 206 00:09:32,918 --> 00:09:34,183 They're both the same week. 207 00:09:34,183 --> 00:09:36,656 I believe it's the third week of... 208 00:09:36,822 --> 00:09:39,006 the second to the last week of August. 209 00:09:40,202 --> 00:09:42,270 These dates are all on our website. 210 00:09:43,328 --> 00:09:47,300 What you would do, first of all, is go to the big picture website, 211 00:09:47,300 --> 00:09:48,651 which is Camp Maple Leaf. 212 00:09:48,651 --> 00:09:51,703 It's www.campmapleleaf.ca 213 00:09:52,100 --> 00:09:53,500 When you go on there, 214 00:09:53,800 --> 00:09:56,721 you'll go into, I would like to apply to camp, 215 00:09:56,721 --> 00:09:58,288 into the campers we serve. 216 00:09:58,700 --> 00:10:02,315 You will look for Camp Skein, which is week 8, 217 00:10:02,690 --> 00:10:04,200 for children who are grieving. 218 00:10:04,600 --> 00:10:06,100 And then, you will be picking 219 00:10:06,405 --> 00:10:08,170 whether you want to be in New Brunswick 220 00:10:08,170 --> 00:10:10,200 or whether you'd like to be in Ontario. 221 00:10:10,600 --> 00:10:14,790 And then, it's a short application process at first. 222 00:10:14,790 --> 00:10:17,763 There's a whack of paperwork that comes later once you're in. 223 00:10:17,763 --> 00:10:19,911 But right now, it's a short process. 224 00:10:21,005 --> 00:10:24,393 The idea is, we are a charity. 225 00:10:24,393 --> 00:10:26,396 I'll point that out right from the beginning. 226 00:10:26,396 --> 00:10:29,306 We're a charity, and we also are not for profit. 227 00:10:29,630 --> 00:10:32,200 What will happen is that we have a fee 228 00:10:32,900 --> 00:10:37,000 that is a fee of whatever you can afford to pay of that fee. 229 00:10:37,798 --> 00:10:42,834 If you're able to, it is 875 dollars for the week, okay? 230 00:10:43,010 --> 00:10:44,942 Some people choose to pay more than that. 231 00:10:44,942 --> 00:10:46,757 That's fine. We have that option. 232 00:10:46,980 --> 00:10:49,041 Some people, that's too much of a stretch. 233 00:10:49,300 --> 00:10:50,917 What happens is, 234 00:10:50,917 --> 00:10:52,960 if you need funding, you check it off, 235 00:10:53,400 --> 00:10:57,713 and then you will be chatting with our registrar. 236 00:10:57,938 --> 00:11:01,215 Pebbles is her camp name, otherwise, Michelle Robinson. 237 00:11:02,225 --> 00:11:04,100 Basically, she'll work out with you 238 00:11:04,400 --> 00:11:07,081 what is a comfortable amount of a fee 239 00:11:07,081 --> 00:11:09,472 that would work for your particular family. 240 00:11:09,800 --> 00:11:13,550 This way, it helps the fundraised dollar stretch further, 241 00:11:13,550 --> 00:11:15,000 as far as it can go, 242 00:11:15,000 --> 00:11:19,300 so that we can be able to support as many families as possible. 243 00:11:19,700 --> 00:11:22,480 Some people need the financial help, 244 00:11:22,480 --> 00:11:25,073 but some people just need the camp help 245 00:11:25,073 --> 00:11:26,470 but don't need the financial help. 246 00:11:26,470 --> 00:11:28,000 That's how that works. 247 00:11:28,699 --> 00:11:32,174 Right now, we happen to have room in both camps, 248 00:11:32,597 --> 00:11:35,000 but they do fill up rather quickly. 249 00:11:35,777 --> 00:11:38,683 Just like all of our military sessions in Ontario 250 00:11:38,965 --> 00:11:41,700 are at capacity now and are on a waitlist. 251 00:11:42,600 --> 00:11:44,900 In New Brunswick, there's still some room, 252 00:11:45,200 --> 00:11:48,187 but for Camp Skein, it's going to happen as well. 253 00:11:48,187 --> 00:11:51,285 I would suggest people put down their deposit. 254 00:11:52,392 --> 00:11:53,673 That will hold the spot. 255 00:11:53,906 --> 00:11:57,753 We will refund the deposit right up until the week before camp. 256 00:11:57,959 --> 00:11:59,229 We just want you to be happy. 257 00:11:59,229 --> 00:12:01,924 You have nothing to lose by holding your spot. 258 00:12:03,100 --> 00:12:05,400 (Stephen) Given the popularity of your camps, 259 00:12:05,800 --> 00:12:08,173 is there a possibility of expansion 260 00:12:08,173 --> 00:12:09,900 in other parts of the country in the future? 261 00:12:10,170 --> 00:12:11,729 (April) Definitely. I'm glad you asked. 262 00:12:11,729 --> 00:12:13,790 We're actually... It's on the plans 263 00:12:13,790 --> 00:12:16,058 that we're going to be expanding to Alberta next year. 264 00:12:16,058 --> 00:12:17,200 So there you go. 265 00:12:18,527 --> 00:12:21,600 We're definitely a needs-guided organization. 266 00:12:21,600 --> 00:12:23,969 Where the need is is where we're going to be. 267 00:12:24,852 --> 00:12:26,469 Maple Leaf fulfill those needs. 268 00:12:26,469 --> 00:12:27,488 That's the idea. 269 00:12:28,206 --> 00:12:29,538 (Stephen) What about French kids? 270 00:12:30,000 --> 00:12:31,151 (April) Oh, great point. 271 00:12:33,555 --> 00:12:36,746 Predominantly, the organization is made up of English speakers. 272 00:12:36,746 --> 00:12:38,980 I did take it in high school and university. 273 00:12:38,980 --> 00:12:40,100 Didn't do so well. 274 00:12:40,100 --> 00:12:41,800 (laughing) But I tried. 275 00:12:41,800 --> 00:12:45,476 Well, what we do as an organization 276 00:12:45,476 --> 00:12:48,608 is we make sure we hire enough bilingual staff 277 00:12:48,608 --> 00:12:52,072 so that the children, if they come and they are French only, 278 00:12:52,390 --> 00:12:55,550 then they have a camp counsellor in their cabin 279 00:12:55,550 --> 00:12:56,643 to help facilitate. 280 00:12:56,643 --> 00:12:57,697 It's actually really neat 281 00:12:57,697 --> 00:13:00,804 because the kids get a kick of learning each other's languages 282 00:13:00,804 --> 00:13:02,114 of English and French, 283 00:13:02,114 --> 00:13:04,086 and the camp counsellor can make sure 284 00:13:04,086 --> 00:13:07,215 that everything is translated in both directions. 285 00:13:07,461 --> 00:13:09,102 Everything we do, 286 00:13:09,102 --> 00:13:15,353 from the ceremonies at flagpole, to the announcements, 287 00:13:15,353 --> 00:13:17,842 to the rules, to the fun skits 288 00:13:17,842 --> 00:13:20,278 are all in French and English 289 00:13:20,278 --> 00:13:23,293 when we have even one French child at the camp. 290 00:13:25,108 --> 00:13:27,318 (Stephen) April, thank you so much for joining us today. 291 00:13:28,100 --> 00:13:30,700 (April) Thank you so much. It's been an honour and a pleasure. 292 00:13:30,700 --> 00:13:33,468 I'm so happy that you've given us this platform 293 00:13:33,468 --> 00:13:34,950 to reach our military families. 294 00:13:35,200 --> 00:13:38,696 I really hope that they trust us with their children's hearts, 295 00:13:38,696 --> 00:13:40,100 because we will do right by them. 296 00:13:40,400 --> 00:13:42,700 (Stephen) April Young is the Maple Leaf Camp Director. 297 00:13:42,900 --> 00:13:44,910 You can find out more about these camps 298 00:13:44,910 --> 00:13:47,200 by visiting the web page provided below. 299 00:13:47,800 --> 00:13:49,589 Thank you for listening to another of C...